Wow, it sure feels good to be in control again. I have tracked and eaten great for several days already. Still not weighing myself though. That doesn’t concern me as much as what I eat does. I had to cut way back on fresh fruit. I want to not only save the money they cost but the carbs they add. I still want to try and keep the carbs at a decent amount. For me that is around 25% of my calories or less. I am always way to high on carbs.
Yesterday I didn’t eat good. Got a new hair style late in the day then spent the night with my Granddaughter making a seating chart for her mother who is getting married tomorrow. I finally finished it, hope she likes it. I love the new hair cut. Hope Amanda can learn to cut it. I like her cutting my hair.
My calories for yesterday were scary low even with the 2 glasses of wine. Love my wine, that is the biggest reason I pack on the pounds. Sad but true. I try to enjoy a few glasses once a week now. When I was losing weight and keeping it off I wasn’t enjoying any at all. I refuse to do that again unless I enjoy it far to much. Yea right.
I am slightly embarrassed to admit I have been a slacker with my CR. While I have NOT been eating bad food I have been not counting nor paying enough attention to quantity. The results are not pretty, I have gained a few pounds and feel miserable.
I read most of my posts on this blog and watched several of my youTube videos and am determined to find what it was that made me create them. I want to know that person again. I am no way near what she was just a few years ago. I am pretty sure part of it is the ongoing economy and our money situation. I can’t blame all of it on that but want to. There is no funds for what I want to do, the pits. I was asked to come back to a lessor job and did it, now it seems that one is also drying up. At 70 it is not easy to find work even though I have plenty of skills and time.
Back to my weight, which I have been trying to ignore. I am up 30 pounds, in the grand scheme of things I am still down 70 but who cares. I hate this 30 pounds although my skin is now filled out again. I miss my wrinkles. I seem to be a lucky one, no wrinkles on the face, never had them anyway. Mine are in the arms and legs. Clothes do wonders for them so I am allowed missing my wrinkles.
I have found a few new things that I love. I have a bit of arthritis in my hands, I am now taking an enzyme that seems to be helping me. No more puffy fingers. I can’t remember if I had puffy fingers when I was 30 pounds lighter, I sure will remember it this time. 30 pounds yikes, admitting it hurts. Oh well, I don’t want pity or advice I know what to do. I started it already.
Since going back to work last fall I haven’t spent anytime on the computer, that and the Ipad kept me away. Today is the first time in almost a year I have been here longer than just checking bank accounts. I even updated my wordpress from a very old version. Took me more than it should have but it was successful. Yea.
On to a thinner, happier, smaller, cuter, content me. On to calorie restriction and my buddy the cronOmeter.
Good to be back.
I am doing pretty good with CR and using the Cron O Meter. Good thing my two tomato plants are producing some great tasting tomatoes right now. They keep me with a low calorie count even when I decide to eat 5 of the beauties.
The weight is slowly going down. No big numbers to report, heck I am no even reporting a number. I did try on the skinny jeans again today. Got into them but not comfortably. I still need to remove 5 pounds to feel good in them. But, I feel confident I will be in them in a week or so. I have only one pair of size 7 skinny jeans because I wasn’t in that size long. I have lots of skinny size 2′s. Yep I was there for over a year. Good ole days, ha just a few months ago. I will be there soon enough.
Even though crap is happening all around me I am determined to stay on track. This darn economy is really trying its best to ruin me. There is nothing I can cut back on. We are already at bare minimum. I am trying to use less utilities. The a/c for one, even in these 100+ days. I set it at 80. Hope it makes a difference with the electric bill. Things have to get better for us somehow. I will take care of me so I can get through these sad times.
Here it is almost midnight on my first day using the Cron O Meter, weighing my food and eating better. I made it through the whole day and gotta admit I am darn happy about it.
I am remembering just how easy it is to do. I did have about 1300 calories today and far to many carbs in the Organic Melon I had. But, hey I didn’t eat the entire melon, in fact I had 16 ounces. Still too much but sure not as much as it could have been. Since the Greek is trying his best to cut back on bread he is eating what I don’t in the fruit department. It is great to see him eat cherries, strawberries and melons. He has always turned them down. He is a banana kind of guy and cooked fruit in pies, the store bought kind, those disgusting things we ate as kids. Killer crap.
I will weigh myself tonight to see if I am 2 pounds heavier than I was this morning. That is all we should gain during the day, if we are heavier than the 2 pounds it means we have over done it with carbs. They cause inflammation, inflammation is heavy. Right now I don’t feel as inflamed as I had been, but it has only one day. If I am as toxic as I suspect I should drop 10 pounds in a week. Yea right. It could happen, but not for me.
I am back and loving it.
I am finding it difficult to get back to good CR. I know how it makes me feel, wonderful, and know how to do it, easy, so why can’t I?
I have successfully stopped doing destructive things to my body in the past so I know I can do this. I have stopped smoking, stopped drinking to much wine, stopped eating chips, drinking diet soda and lots of other crazy things. So I know I can do this.
I have decided to count my calories and track my nutrients faithfully for one week to see if I can do it again. Since I enjoyed it so much when I was doing it I hope I feel the same again. Since I don’t do great being hungry for any length of time the plan is to eat my maintenance calories and gradually get myself down to 15% less than that. One day or week at a time. Once I get there I should have no problem staying there. I did it before and feel confident I can do it again.
I remember when I started eating more calories, it was so stupid of me to do that. I read a darn book about metabolism and I thought I needed to fix mine. The idea was to eat more food more often. So I tried it. It was even hard to eat more food for me but I sure did manage. I managed to good. One lousy carb led to others until I just can’t get off the crappy things. I have a bottomless pit, I sure miss that wonderful full feeling I used to get on CR. I remember that too.
So here it is fruit season again and I am really hitting the farms buying wonderful cherries, strawberries, blackberries, apricots, peaches, all the good stuff. Wish I could eat just one. The farms are off limits for me now. I need to lose 15 to 20 pounds. That is far to much weight to gain in one year. I am still lighter by 80 pounds but sure don’t feel it right now.
I am looking forward to tomorrow.
I have a new hair style and color. I love the color but don’t love the style. It just has to be short for me. The darn Greek keeps telling me to let it grow, what the heck does he know anyway.